Too Lucky?

Ever feel like things are TOO good? I remember when I was like 12 or 13 and something good happened (I don't remember what), I said to someone that something bad will inevitably happen b/c that's how it always goes. You can't enjoy anything for too long. So I've always been a little fearful when things are going too well for too long.

So I'm a tad fearful now. I can't even begin to describe how amazing it feels to love your job so much that you can't imagine doing anything else EVER. I love what I do, I love that I'm good at what I do, I love that others think I'm good at what I do, I love the people I work with on a daily basis and I love all the friends I've made through this job. I sometimes feel like one of the luckiest people ever! Seriously! And more recently I've been given a chance to taste another aspect of things around here AND a side job doing what I already love doing for someone else! Excellent! All day, everyday I'm laughing my ass off, I get to yell at my boss and he lets me, I can wear/look like anything I want. Great.

I love the house I live in, sure it could be a little closer to my job, but it's big and it's cheap, and the best part is I live with two of the best housemates I could ever ask for. They're like brothers only we don't fight! And I get to share the dog without actually being responsible for her! I've been there over 3 years now and I can't imagine leaving.

The family is great too! Ever since I moved out, I (mostly) get along great with my parents. My dad is so happy to see me whenever I visit, my mom comes to Weight Watchers with me, and they give me money randomly! :) The extended family has always been great and I have the best cousins. I love family gatherings!! I don't know very many people my age who do.

Money could be better, but that's mostly b/c I don't know how to say "no" to myself, but it's still livable.

The only area I have major trouble in, is the love life. Still struggling to not love my ex-boyfriend and having trouble finding a new one...but because of my fear of something bad happening to ruin everything else, I think that this is the price I have to pay for the other stuff to remain so good. Crazy, right? I honestly believe you can't have it all, that something will always be off. That sucks. I'm hoping to prove myself wrong, but...so far no evidence to that.

Eh. We'll see.

The End.