Twice An Idiot

Ok, so I decided to be a Hogwarts student (Gryffindor house, of course!) for Halloween this year. I dressed up for a bachelorette on Friday and a bar party/rock show on Saturday. I bought the robe, scarf and tie, but I needed a wand. I used to have some crappy children's wand my dad gave me but I couldn't find it, so I went to/called toy and Halloween stores, but no luck. I was too last minute and they were all sold out. So I found this drumstick in my house and on Thursday night I sawed the end off of it and on Friday I just used that. Not a bad idea. However, on Saturday, I decided to try to make it look better. I got sandpaper and a file from my dad, then came home and sawed the little nub off. Then I found a knife of my flatmate's and decided to try to carve the thing.

Herein lies my first idiotic move of the night.

Of course I am cutting towards me and I end up slicing the side of my thumb. Holy crap! I've never seriously injured myself before (worst thing was spraining my ankle...I was in Rome...story for another day), never broke any bones and never had stitches. It was bleeding a lot, I grabbed a paper towel and held it tight, but I started to feel like I was going to pass out. Neither of my boys was home so I called my mom and told her I cut myself pretty bad and might pass out. So my parents came over. I didn't know if I should go to the hospital, but they thought I didn't need to and bandaged up my thumb. The whole time I'm crying like a baby. Freaked me the fuck out.

So now I have this stupid giantly-bandaged thumb that's going to drive me crazy. (Not to mention my OTHER thumb went numb right before the Great Slicing. I don't know what THAT'S about, but hey, of course I have to have that happen too!)

Anyway, I decide to still go to the Halloween show b/c I was looking forward to it (there's a Misfits cover band that plays that's actually really good and it kind of transports me back to 10 years ago, with all my punk friends going crazy). Had a decent time at the show, didn't drink for fear of thinning my blood and bleeding more. Also had to explain the thumb a lot.

Here comes idiotic move #2.

The ex was there. Little. Who I miss beyond comprehension. I hadn't seen him in a month or two. He was there ending the bachelor party night (the one that coincided with the bachelorette I went to). After the show and most of the bachelor party left, I was talking to Little. He was drunk and exhuasted from jumping around for 40 minutes. He wanted to go home, so I offered to drive him.

Then I asked if he had any band-aids I could take home b/c I didn't have any so he said to come in. So... well, I don't want to get TOO personal, but I ended up staying there. It's been over a year since the last time THAT happened.

I found out today he's been sort of seeing someone, but it's not going well. He says the same thing always happens, he starts getting irritated and snaps at the girl or whatever (I was the first...he never had a proper girlfriend before me). I told him I can't stay interested in anyone for very long. I don't know. I hate that I can't get over him. And yet there are tons of things that he does that drives me crazy...but we've both changed a lot in the last two years and I wish we could give it a shot again...

I hate me. I'm so stupid. I can't believe I let that happen last night. I wasn't even drunk (he WAS, though). I'm really surprised he let it happen too, actually.

Anyway, there you go, twice an idiot.

On the plus side, I made my 10 lb. mark today! 4 more to my first goal!

Kickboxing is going to suck with this thumb issue. I'll just have to not do the left hand stuff for a couple weeks.

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Leopard!

Gah! I want it! I'm broke! Gotta get it!


I love Apple!!!!!!!


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Countdown 9...

It's 9 lbs. total now! I know it seems like nothing since the last I posted was 8.4, but I gained 1.2 last week, then lost 1.8 this week, so I'm happy about it!

And I watched a lot of TV that was building up on my DVD last night...but I was up late and I'm super exhausted and really don't want to work right now. ::sigh::

Made a hair appointment for a few weeks from now, right before a wedding I'm going to. Can't wait! I hate my current hair! Boring!

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Movie Review — Michael Clayton

I'm not going to say much, I'm not a reviewer, but I liked this movie. Clooney was fantastic in it.



Spoilerish:

I expected more toughness, though. The trailers/teasers made him seem so bad-ass and that there would be more of him "cleaning up" messes and shit. You don't actually see him do anything! Throughout the movie they talk about him being the best "janitor" but you don't actually see any examples of this. Instead, you see a lot of his life just falling apart. Which isn't bad!! The movie is good! I enjoyed it fully, I just wish you had a little more in the beginning showing him being super-great at what he does.

Anyway, good movie, recommended. Seriously, Clooney is really great in it. I love him now. :)

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And suddenly I found, how wonderful a sound can be...

So, last night, in the middle of class, Maria announces in front of everybody that I'm starting to get definition in my arms. haha It's so slight you can't even see it, but I love her for saying so. I probably blushed. I've never heard her say anything like that to anyone before... maybe she loves me too... haha I've actually barely spoken to her...or anyone else in the class. So strange b/c in everything else I'm so outspoken, but in this class I'm so quiet. Probably b/c I'm all shy about exercising in front of others...though it's not so bad anymore, I've been there over 10 times now. I say hi and bye to some of them now and when we have to do partner exercises, I'll talk to whoever I have to partner with (my friend hasn't come to class in like 4 weeks!), but that's about it. [The best was about 3 classes ago, I had no partner so I partnered with Maria! hee! She said I did a good job on the exercise too! Yay!]

I really do love that class though. I am going to really try to not miss any more classes. Next week I have to miss Wednesday's class b/c I have concert, but I'm really going to try to put this first. Next Monday, some friends are having a bar gathering, but I am not going b/c then I would have NO class next week. They're giving me shit about it, but I don't care, this is really making me feel better about myself. I have to try to find a pay-as-you-go fun exercise class on Saturdays b/c it's such a long time b/t Wed. & Mon. and if I'm free on a Saturday, I want to go to a class sometimes...maybe I can get Maria to give me private lessons...heh heh heh heh



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Maria...I just met a girl named Maria...

I finally found out the name of my kickboxing instructor that I have a huge crush on! Maria! On Wednesday (when she was filling in for the other guy b/c she's cool and he's stupid and CONSTANTLY canceling classes) I told her I had realised I didn't even know her name. She said it was Maria, then asked mine and shook my hand. She's adorable. It's like one of those crushes you have on your teachers when you're in school (though I actually wouldn't know, I never had a crush on any of my teachers). I don't actually WANT her, but I just adore her and think she's adorable. :)

So now, that West Side Story song keep playing through my head...

Maria...I just met a girl named Maria...And suddenly I found, how wonderful a sound can be! Say it loud and there's music playing...Say it soft and it's almost like praying...Maria...I'll never stop saying.........Maria!!



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My Bladerunner Rant

OMG, SPOILERZ!!!!!! (haha)

OK, so I saw Bladerunner for the first time last night (it's being shown in theaters in select cities) and I have to say, I was not all that impressed.

Well, see, here's the thing. If I had seen it when it came out (and had been old enough) I'm sure I WOULD have been impressed. The themes and the cool "futuristic" setting etc. But as I didn't see it until now, I've already seen/read many stories with this whole "robots realise they're being treated slave-ish or whatever and revolt" thing. It's a cool idea, but it's not new to me anymore. And THIS particular movie tells its story EXTREMELY slow. Holy crap, I had to fight to keep my eyes open!! And also, with today's CGI and movie technology...I've seen cooler shit, so this wasn't that amazing to me. And the WORST part was the ridiculously cheesy background music (or rather, noises)!! Especially the "love" scene!!

That doesn't mean I think it's crap, really. I appreciate that most of the stuff I'VE seen has probably been influenced by this and that it was pretty amazing for it's time. AND it's not like I didn't like ANYTHING in the movie. There were some decent fights/chases (though even those seemed a bit long) and there were SOME things about this future world that I thought was cool ('specially the noodle bars on the street! Yum!) and I LOVED that guy's walking/talking toys!! I just...well, I guess it was hyped up too much for me and I was let down. I really don't think I'd ever sit down to watch it again...unless I wanted to fall asleep... :-P

Oh yeah, and then, I was told by co-workers that somewhere along the line we're supposed to figure out that Han Solo (heh) is a Replicant himself! Where the hell was I? I didn't get that. Maybe I'm just stupid. Or artistically challenged. But I think that's a pretty big point and if that's the case it should have been more clearly spelled out.

::sigh:: Oh well...I just I really wanted to love it!!!

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Why Aren't You Dating Anyone?

Nothing like the hot guy at work asking who you're dating now and then asking why when your answer is "no one." ::sigh:: I told him it's b/c they all suck. Which is true. Sorta. Really, the answer is everyone I like, doesn't like me and everyone that likes me, I have very little to zero interest in. Poop. (On the plus side, I adore talking to the hot guy...I'll call him Eagle...last week he walks by me in the hall and asks if I'm losing weight b/c I look great! How awesome is that??!?)

Haven't talked to Hot Dog at all since Saturday. I guess that's done and DONE. The ex is still in my world and that sucks. I wish he would move away. Avoiding Mr. 80s (I swear he's in the closet). Link is a jerk. (He's the one I am extremely compatible with and he acts like he likes me when I see him, but then he never answers emails, etc. Doesn't help that he lives 2 hours drive away...) Whatever, all I can do is just keep trying!

(Hey Thighs, making up names IS fun. You were right!)

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Operation 8.4!!

I lost another 2.8 this week!! Woohoo! That's a grand total of 8.4 in 7 weeks! So, of course, I pig out today... ;-) Well, I actually had planned on having today be one of my cheat days. I figure if I have no more than one a month, it won't hurt too much, and I'm really only doing it for special occasions. Today was my friends' bridal shower, so I let go. It was Chinese food, which is one of the biggest things I miss. (God I love Lo Mein!!) But I won't let it fuck me up for the rest of the week. Back to counting tomorrow. Hopefully this one day won't have set me back too much. We'll see!!

So now I'm JUST under 140 lbs., so instead of 20 points a day, I only get 19! ::sigh:: But that's how you loose. And once another 10 come off, it's down to 18... But then once you're maintaining they add points back until you're not gaining and not losing. But I've got a ways to go before that. Though, now I'm over halfway towards my FIRST goal! :-) 14 lbs. for the first goal, and 10 for the second. :) :) I am getting many compliments too, which are EXTREMELY helpful in sticking to it!!

Man, I love bridal showers and weddings. I'm so sad I'm not having one...or at least the prospect of one. I'm not ready to be married just yet, but I wouldn't mind a fucking boyfriend!! But one I really love... ::sigh:: I miss Little...STILL!

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Myspace stalker is no more...I hope!

So I got another message from the lame joke guy and after the jokes (one of which was the first to make me laugh) he asks if he should stop sending them. So I finally respond with "Yes, you can stop." So he said he will stop being a pain in the ass.

Admittedly, he wasn't really being that much of a pain, it wasn't a big deal to delete the messages...but it just seemed kind of sad. I can't understand how someone can send me that many messages without a response and not take the hint!! So weird. Oh, well. It's over now.

Unless he decides to try again one day...

Had an incident with Hot Dog last night, guess that's over now. I did make a new friend, though!

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Grrrr...

Stupid kickboxing class was canceled last night!! This is the second time I've tried to go to two classes in one week and the Wed. class got canceled! Something is wrong with the dude instructor...::sigh::

So I exercised in my room for 1/2 hour, but it's not the same. So I had to dip into my extra points for dinner/desert (2 point ice cream cup! yum!). Ah, well...

Watched the new episode of Dexter last night too. Pretty good, though I had to run away at one point. His serial killer parts where he actually cuts up people freak me out... This weeks' House was awesome, glad Cameron & Chase aren't gone for good. I love them!! Too much TV now! Still have to watch the first 2 episodes of Bionic Woman, and the second episode of Chuck (though I missed the first) and catch up with Weeds and My Name is Earl! New Law & Order SVU to watch this week...plus I still want to finish 24 Season 4!!! Too many good shows nowadays!! Oh, the trials and tribulations of a TV lover... ;-)

No TV tonight, though. Going to see Eastern Promises tonight with a friend...I've heard mixed reviews, but I like Viggo and I love Russian. And I hear there's a nude fight scene and that's awesome!! ;-)

Using some extra points tonight too, cuz we're going to dinner first!

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Hurts So Good

Two days after kickboxing and my inner thighs and abdomen are so sore! And I'm going tonight too! (I think it's so bad b/c I didn't go for two weeks due to prior engagements...okay, one of them I was hungover.) But it's awesome, though! I love that kind of pain!!! Makes me feel like I'm actually doing something!! And I've been going by myself too b/c my friend has been busy with wedding planning. That's a big step for me! Yay me!!

Also...it doesn't hurt that I have a huge crush on my instructor. The female one... :-P There are two instructors, one for Monday, one for Wednesday. I've only been to one Wednesday class so far (today will be number two), and he's a nice guy, but not cute. But the girl on Mondays is so fucking pretty and so adorable and I love her laugh when she fucks something up. She's a goddamned drill sergeant, but I love her. ;-)

Looking forward to class tonight, though. His class is slightly less intense, which is good since I'm still in pain from Monday. Plus he doesn't make us do any exercises with a partner (the girl has us do one with a partner and I don't like having to do that with people I don't know).

Also, I had chicken teryaki for lunch today since I'm going to work it off and get more points back. :) Man, was it tasty!!!

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