One down...

So I went on a second date with Yoga yesterday. Overall, it was a nice day, we had brunch at around 1 and then rode out bikes (I LOVE MY NEW BIKE!!!) for about an hour on the boardwalk. Nice.

But it's over for Yoga...poor Yoga.

He's a really nice guy...and cute (not HOT, but cute), but I just don't feel it. Maybe I AM being Seinfeld about it, but he's a little weird...and he talks weird, kind of mumbles, laughs a lot weirdly...(haha TOTALLY Seinfeld) and the most annoying thing: he has this habit of CONSTANTLY finishing my sentences...but WRONG. He'll repeatedly finish my thought and then I have to tell him no and THEN finish what I was saying. It's so fucking annoying! But he doesn't do it in a mean way or anything, so I can't be mad, but gah! Drove me nuts!

Ew, and then I kept seeing snot hanging down his nose when we were riding our bikes. Yes, it was kind of cold and that shit happens, I know, but it would be there too long before he wiped it away. Gross. TOTALLY turned me off. ::sigh:: Like I said, poor guy.

I could have kept riding, but I really just wanted to get away so I told him I was tired and had to take a nap (that the riding wore me out). I didn't totally lie, I did nap for about 1/2 hour but that was an hour or so after I got home. Now I have to figure out how to get out of this. LUCKILY, he knows how busy I am, so I can put it off for awhile and then he's going away for three weeks. Hopefully I can stall until then so it's like been over a month and it'll be easier to just tell him I don't have time to date anyone, or something like that. We'll see.

Meanwhile, Tall called again — HE was away for a few days — and hopefully we'll do something on Tuesday. I already had something to do, but I asked if he just wanted to come along. Hopefully it won't be too weird with some friends around, I know it's only the second date. But I figured we could have dinner before this comedy thing and then afterwards we usually all go to a bar so maybe it won't be so weird as long as I pay attention to him. We'll see, he hasn't called back yet (I left this suggestion in a message, he doesn't have a mobile).

Oh, I just remembered too, Yoga also made some awkward attempts to like kiss me or SOMEthing, wasn't sure WHAT he was trying. When we came back to my house after brunch to get my bike, I had to use the bathroom so he came inside and I showed him around a bit. In the living room and in my room, he like stood real close and like KIND OF put his around around my waist, but not really...it was awkward. I don't know if he wanted to make out or what. I mean, we made out A LOT on the first date, but we were also pretty fucking trashed. It would have been weird...I guess especially b/c I wasn't feelin' it. I guess he IS.

Gah! I hate that it's so rare that the guy and the girl are on the same page (well, not rare in general), or barely anyone would be in a relationship, but I guess rare in each individuals life). Like why can't he also not see how it's not there. He'd be a good enough guy to hang out with once and awhile if we were friends, but it's just not there otherwise.

Ah well...I still have hope for Tall. But who knows, I'm a fucking dumb-ass...

The End.

Sick

Now I'm stuck home sick! I missed work — which I really didn't want to b/c I've got a lot to do — and I have to skip the second date with Tall I was going to have today! I was skipping kickboxing for it and all! Waaaaaah!

At least I can go pick up my bike which I missed out on doing on Saturday b/c they changed their hours...grrrrrrrrr....

Okay, that's all. LAME post...

The End.

I Don't Want A Boyfriend...

This is what I'm thinking about this morning. I think maybe this is what it feels like to be a guy. ;-)

I called Tall back last night, no answer, left a message that this week was no good and maybe next week. But now I have to call again tonight and tell him that I CAN go out tomorrow night, as my Thursday night plan has been postponed to NEXT Thursday night! While I was calling Tall, Yoga was calling me. Just to say hi (he left a message)!

Gragh! I'm actually ANNOYED by all of this! I don't want to talk to Yoga until I see him (I no longer like the phone AND I want to save stuff to talk about for when I see him so there's no awkward silences). I don't want to have to try to figure out when I can squeeze these dates in and I'm NOT canceling any of my plans b/c I LIKE my plans. And sometimes it's nice to have a night doing nothing (my last two Saturdays), but I'll have to give those up for these guys...

I know, I know, oh pooooor me, right? I don't know. I guess I just can't be happy. I whinge about being lonely and then when I have some prospects, I'm complaining that I don't really want to deal with them! It's feels like work and I just don't want to deal with it! This is probably one of the reasons I keep myself so attached to Little. I don't have to "date" him and as long as I have him as an excuse for not being ready, I don't have to try that hard with anyone else.

Bah! I just want to eat, drink, chill with friends, go to shows, kickbox, ride my bike (haven't gotten it yet, but I will this weekend! woo!), read, play video games, travel...everything! I want to do everything! So, who's got time for a boyfriend (let alone, TWO)?!?!

The End.

Boys Part 2: The Waiter

So I was at a pub this Sunday (not for St. Patrick's Day, for McEats' belated birthday gathering, but it was full of the Irish!) and we had a table with a waiter to bring us beer. I liked this waiter. :-P The drunker I got, the more I watched him and giggled like a doofus and kept telling McEats that I liked him. He liked that I liked him b/c he likes the pub. haha So McEats' girlfriend (lets call her...Curls) decided she would take matters into her own hands and give him my number. So gets a piece of paper and gets McEats to give her the number and she puts it with the check (his shift was over so we were settling his bill before we had a new waiter). At first I took it away, too nervous, but then after some prodding by both Curls and McEats (I really like using these names!), I gave in (McEats' sound reasoning is if he calls, I'm not a loser, and if he doesn't, well, I don't go to that pub that often anyway). Sitting there for a few seconds, I eventually freaked out and ran to the loo to pee.

Within seconds after I came back to the table, he came over and introduced himself...hmmmm, let's call him Tall...and asked where I was from, if I was in school, etc. He seemed interested in what I do for a living, which was cool. He said he was exhausted and had to leave, but it was nice meeting me and did I really want him to call? So I said yes. After this, I had to leave to go see a band I like, with Little (sigh) and other friends. Getting drunker, I was nervous all night that Tall wouldn't call and that he was so cute. haha

Then the next morning, I realised I was WAAAAY more nervous that he MIGHT call! (Also a little worried that he wouldn't be as cute sober...)

So. Guess who called a few hours ago? I was at work and didn't answer and when I noticed it was not a number I knew, I panicked. Checked the voicemail. Yep. Tall. Very sweet asked if I was still interested in getting a drink or dinner sometime and gave me his number. Gah! I haven't called back yet. I've tried to call McEats, but he's probably working somewhere and I can't get ahold of him.

::sigh:: Same problem occurs with the timing if we DO go out, though I've decided I can skip my current Friday plans if need be. (Weird how I wouldn't skip it for Yoga...haha...but I guess it's better to make the guy wait longer for the second date, than the first.) Man, the life of a single young(-ish) girl! It's nerve-wracking! haha

Seriously! My stomach is doing flip-flops! I'm scared to call back! It's funny how I'm so good at talking to people, but I just can't make myself know this at times like these!

(Just looked over my calendar quick...I really am busy...I'll probably lose both of these guys b/c I won't be around to see them!)

Okay, I'm going to go home now. I'll call on my way home so I have an out in the conversation! ;-)

The End.

Boys Part 1: The Date

So I had a date Friday night! This is a very rare occurrence for me. And by date, I mean, going out with someone you barely know to see if you'll like each other. I've "gone out" with guys plenty of times, but usually after I've either been friends with them or known them somehow and have already kissed them at least once (like at a party or some random drunk bar thing). This was one of the few real "date" dates, like in the movies. ;-)

It wasn't very formal at all, though. We agreed to meet up for drinks, so we ended up at a bar that served like BBQ or whatever. And I didn't exactly NOT know him, I went to school with his sister for 7 years, but I really never talked to him until recently when I ran into him at a local bar. Then, about a month and a half ago, he ended up being on my bus going home and we talked briefly. I kept thinking about him that night and thinking he was kind of cute and maybe I should see if he's interested, try it out. So I sent him a message on MYSPACE (ahhh, myspace) — as we'd "friended" each other when we ran into each other the first time — and I kind of manipulated him into asking me out (not that he didn't want to and I tricked him, just worked it so I didn't have to do the asking!) and we had a tentative "date" to get a beer together (actually, it was supposed to be the same week I went out for drinks with Catch-22). It got a little postponed, but we finally went out Friday.

And it was...nice. I have to admit, not AMAZING or anything. But I had fun (I DID get pretty wasted, though). He's very sweet and cute and I had fun making out with him. ;-) He's a little bit weird, not in a bad way...just...I can't explain, just a bit weird. Not creepy or anything. CRAZY into Yoga, does like 12 hours a week! But yeah, sweet and cute. And he seems intelligent, and he has (what I would consider) good views on politics and religion (so far as I can tell at this point, anyway). So we'll see. I'm definitely going to try again. I'll try not to drop him too quickly, as I've been prone to do lately. As long as I'm still attracted to him, I'm going to try to keep it going. (I say that b/c THAT keeps happening too...and I can't keep trying if I'm no longer attracted to him enough to even kiss him! But I'm going to try not to be so "Seinfeld" about it! haha)

Big problem (though, maybe NOT a problem) is that I've got an insanely busy schedule and the next time I even have a day to see him is...I don't know when! Probably two weeks! I don't know how this dating thing works and if that's too long...but I kind of want it to go REALLY slow regardless as I enjoy a lot of things about being single...like having a really busy schedule...and being able to kiss/date/give my phone number to anyone...

Which brings me to part 2...

The End...for now!

PS Just realised I didn't give him a name! He shall be...Yoga...simple enough!

Where the hell have I been?

Busy. Super-fucking-busy! Work has been nuts, I went to LA and I've been doing lots of things, including playing Wii!

Eventually I'll talk about all this stuff...for now I'm going to go to the pub! I need a beer!

The End.