I Don't Want A Boyfriend...

This is what I'm thinking about this morning. I think maybe this is what it feels like to be a guy. ;-)

I called Tall back last night, no answer, left a message that this week was no good and maybe next week. But now I have to call again tonight and tell him that I CAN go out tomorrow night, as my Thursday night plan has been postponed to NEXT Thursday night! While I was calling Tall, Yoga was calling me. Just to say hi (he left a message)!

Gragh! I'm actually ANNOYED by all of this! I don't want to talk to Yoga until I see him (I no longer like the phone AND I want to save stuff to talk about for when I see him so there's no awkward silences). I don't want to have to try to figure out when I can squeeze these dates in and I'm NOT canceling any of my plans b/c I LIKE my plans. And sometimes it's nice to have a night doing nothing (my last two Saturdays), but I'll have to give those up for these guys...

I know, I know, oh pooooor me, right? I don't know. I guess I just can't be happy. I whinge about being lonely and then when I have some prospects, I'm complaining that I don't really want to deal with them! It's feels like work and I just don't want to deal with it! This is probably one of the reasons I keep myself so attached to Little. I don't have to "date" him and as long as I have him as an excuse for not being ready, I don't have to try that hard with anyone else.

Bah! I just want to eat, drink, chill with friends, go to shows, kickbox, ride my bike (haven't gotten it yet, but I will this weekend! woo!), read, play video games, travel...everything! I want to do everything! So, who's got time for a boyfriend (let alone, TWO)?!?!

The End.